AM I PREPARED?

I believe I am emotionally prepared for the surgery. I've been writing this blog, thinking, and talking about this for the last few years. I've made peace with my situation, and now it's time to move forward. The way that I would feel after the surgery is what I am not sure of. I've been in a similar situation after a miscarriage. When I awoke from the anesthesia, I just broke out crying uncontrollable. I just know this is unpredictable.

DATE AND TIME

When 4:30pm came and I didn't hear from the appropriate office as to what time I am to be in the hospital tomorrow, I called them. I was told that I need to be at the hospital at 1:00pm. In my view I do not think the surgery would be until about 3:00pm. It's just a guess, I might be wrong.

MEDICAL CLEARANCE

I received my medical clearance on Monday from my cardiologist. He had to read the results from the blood work and EKG along with examining me before he determined that I was fit for surgery. So his secretary faxed the clearance paperwork to the appropriate place. I kept the original so that in case there was an issue, I can produce it. 

HEALTH CARE PROXY

This I found out yesterday is a very integral document to have my wishes met in the event that things did not go the way it's supposed to. I had to appoint two people to attend to the issues of my life should that be a need. Surgery and anesthesia is a very serious issue. It is not to be taken lightly. I have informed my health care proxies of their role on the day of the surgery. Over the weekend we may have a conference call that will detail all my wishes. May God be with me.

PRE-SURGICAL TESTING

Yesterday things could not get more real to me. I went in for pre-surgical testing and realized that I had to do and think about issues that I never thought of before. The appointment was not only about EKG, and blood work, but special instructions to adhere to between now and the day of the surgery.
Don't take vitamins, don't take aspirin or NSAIDs, don't eat from the night before, do take my regular high blood pressure pills with only a sip of water, don't even chew gum. Bring in the CPAP machine to be used in recovery and for any time I may fall asleep. Many do's and don'ts. Paperwork up the wazzoo to read, all my rights and laws that govern. I am going one day at a time with this, but it is harrowing, to say the least. 

MY LAST PERIOD

Well it's been a while since I've been here. But I am having the last period of my life right now, and I don't know if to celebrate or cry. I have had so many awful periods over the last few years that I have explored all my options that wanted to or was capable of trying. Now it is time for the biggest option of them all. I am about a week and a half from my hysterectomy.
Yes, my hysterectomy. I have finally decided to go through with it. In July or was it June I had three periods in 30 days. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. It was too much for me to bear. I couldn't deal with it any longer. So I called the Oncology Gynecologist and made an appointment to come in to discuss a date for surgery.
So now the date is set for September 18, 2014. And I would have 8 weeks off from my jobs to recuperate. During that time I would be able to reflect on my life and the direction it should take after this milestone.